This post is gonna be a little different than what I usually post, and it may be pretty long so bear with me. I really wanna take a pause and mention the big, no huge, elephant in the room. For the past two months, I’ve had an internal battle due to the unfortunate circumstances surrounding this global pandemic. I think everyone can agree that uncertainty is definitely leading to anxiety.
I know faith-based remedies for anxiety aren’t suitable for everyone. (I completely understand because I’ve dealt with that, too.) But I just wanted to get some things off my chest.
I think most, if not all, of us had a first when it came to having Easter celebrations at home because churches aren’t meeting face-to-face, but watching the number of people who tuned into the livestreams helped me remember two things: Jesus is ALIVE and we are all in this together.
During these months away from the real world, I have taken this time to do reflections and checked up on my faith. Once upon a time, about a few months ago to be exact, I had a conversation with a friend about what to do when God throws things at us randomly. Sometimes He puts little obstacles in our way to not only reaffirm our faith, but also to give us a little bit of a vibe check on how life is in general. I have literally started picturing God asking, “how are the vibes?”
Sometimes things happen that kinda suck. For example, when our spring formal got cancelled for our sorority, I cried for an embarrassingly long time. I was so excited, and then I watched all the excitement fall into pieces. But then you have to ask yourself, for what reason could God be doing this?
Usually, I don’t have the answers. None of us do.
Putting our total faith in God is scary. I’m a bit cynical when it comes to relationships due to how unpredictable people are, which can shake my faith with God a little bit. How can you put total faith in God when you have no idea what He will do next? But then I remember that God is actually extremely predictable.
I bet you’re all very confused by that, so let me explain.
Whenever something bad happens in my life, my faith gets shaken a tad because I wasn’t ready. But soon, a few good things start happening here and there. No, it is not God doing something bad to me and giving me little bits of good things to make up for it, He did it to help me appreciate the little things.
When was the last time you called your grandmother/grandfather before the pandemic, and how about now? When was the last time you were excited to go to school, and how about now?
I heard my mom say that things will never be the same, and she’s right. God did this to help us appreciate one another. The world gets so divided at times that He forced us into isolation to help us appreciate just how much we cherish one another.
So, what do we do when our faith gets shaken during a global panic? For me, I’ll stick to my bible. My newer, prettier bible is currently at my apartment, which is an hour away. (very sad I know) But it is kinda poetic that I have to turn to my childhood bible for faith. I’m gonna get a little testimony-esque really quick so just put up with me for a second.
When I was younger, I had a pretty seriously sad thing that happened which sort of plagued my teen-hood. I searched for happiness in all the wrong places, and then I finally found that missing happiness in Christ. As a new faith, new me kinda thing, I got a new bible to celebrate. Which meant that my original bible got thrown to the side. After years of being unused, I’m finally getting to read through it and reaffirm my faith with my original bible.
While reading through, a few verses are popping out at me:
“The Lord your God will be with you everywhere you go.” -Joshua 1:9
“You can be sure that I will be with you always. I will continue with you until the end of the world.” -Matthew 28:20
“Do not worry about anything. But pray and ask God for everything you need.” -Philippians 4:6
“Give all your worries to Him because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
I know putting total faith in God is easier said than done. Especially during times like this, I feel it is almost justified to be a little confused. I think we can all agree that we don’t always know what God is doing when He is doing it. I can’t sit here and say that there are better things coming because I don’t know.
I once heard a Christian YouTuber say that life is a crazy adventure that leads us to God. I think right now that is the perfect way to put it. As a college kid, I feel like the majority of my life is done on impulse anyways. Why not have that impulsive thing be totally completely throwing my faith in God throughout this entire pandemic?
Whether or not this pandemic is a test of faith, one thing is for sure. We cannot stop being Christians just because we’re scared. You’re stuck at home anyways, so pick up your Bible and read it. His word is so comforting that hopefully you can just forget about the world for at least five minutes.
These next few months, maybe even a year, won’t be easy. But walking with God through this, will at least help you to not feel so alone. I for one will be hanging out with Christ, and as soon as I can hang out with my friends, I’ll be hanging out with my friends AND Christ.
God never promised us an easy life. God never said that we would always have undying happiness. The only thing promised was that He would be there for us. I hope that through quarantine we all continue to remember that we can put undying faith in our Lord our Savior for He loves us always.
I just want to end this post with my worship playlist. It has been my tried and true throughout my recent journey with Christ, and I hope you love it as much as I do.
I also want to thank you for reading this. I was definitely pretty nervous about posting it and one of the sweetest girls in my life (and my sister in Christ!! love you Dani <3) really helped me with the strength I needed to post it.
I hope you all have a BLESSED week!!!
see you next time 🙂
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